«I have loved you deeply, true voice. How I will never love anyone. Of that kind of love that can only be born in joys and pain, in thorns and roses, in consciousness and loss. Throughout our decade together. Russia killed you. But not us, and everything you gave birth to me and taught me. Now, I’m learning to hate. ‘
The last message of the bleeding heart, the last love letter that Sviatoslav Yurash wrote to “his” Alexandra is dated Tuesday. He sent it on social networks, to the whole world: Instagram, Twitter. As a young man of 26 he wants to do, to exorcise the torment of which there is no peace. He heartbreaking words, carved in despair, to cry out the loss of his love for him.
Alexandra «Sacha» Kuvshinova. 24 years old, she is the Ukrainian journalist killed under Russian artillery fire during a raid in northern Kiev on Monday. She worked as a producer for the Fox News team. She fell victim to the ambush along with 55-year-old cameraman Pierre Zakrzewski, their car was riddled with bullets while on the move in the village of Horenka, 22 kilometers from the capital.
Sviatoslav was not her boyfriend: «I have a wife and a two and a half year old son, who lives all this horror – he tells us from Kiev -, but Ale was my soul mate. She is the person who knows me best of all, my every secret, fear, dream ». He is the youngest ever deputy of the Ukrainian Parliament, elected with the party of President Zelensky, Servant of the People. He was one of the children of the Euromaidan Revolution, in 2014: «It was our horizon, Europe – he explains -, I had returned from Warsaw, where I was studying International Relations, to share that epochal transition of my country with Ale. I met her when I was 15 during an English summer camp and I fell in love. We had a very deep relationship, but we were two kids ». Sviatoslav was born in Lviv in 1996 to a historian of religion and a film producer. For the Liberation movement, eight years ago, he founded an information newspaper (now Euromaidan Press) in seven languages on various platforms, to give voice to the protesters. Then, the commitment to Fox, politics, values. Of course, he had never carried a Kalashnikov, Sviatoslav. What they gave him at the outbreak of the war and which he keeps hanging behind his back in the videos he posts, while organizing “humanitarian aid in various areas of the capital, in Irpin, in bombed Makariv,” he says, and while coordinating men from the “legion foreigner », as well as putting themselves at the service of« NATO, with news in English from the field ».
They gave him a weapon and he wants revenge and justice, because “I don’t know words to line up to describe the evil I feel.” Putin’s war has achieved one result: “He is teaching me to hate like I never did – he adds -. Since I realize what they are doing to the beauty of Kiev, and to Ale, who was just doing his job. She lived as a twenty year old, wrote poetry, attended music festivals, believed in the truth and in fact on Instagram she was called “Sotrue.voice” ». He never wants to forget “these dark days” of his country and “the perpetrators of the crimes that are disintegrating him and have stolen everything we have built in 40 years since the fall of the Wall”. So he stayed in Kiev. To be like his great-grandfather, who survived Stalingrad, and his great-grandmother, who escaped hunger. “I will do everything to make our nation win. The Russians have to leave my country », he repeats twice in English, in a succinct voice. How? “Unfortunately it does not depend on me, but on Putin.” Sviatoslav wants to swear it on Alexandra and her son: “I don’t hate all Russians, only that criminal and whoever orders my people to be shot. But he will never defeat us, we are already winning ».